Wednesday, May 18, 2011

High School Love

I never expect I will write again about my high school life for people to read. Many people would say that they will meet their first love here in High School. They are 100% right. I met my first love back in high school and it was the best sweet sour moment in my life so far. I might have crushes and love in university but the love i had before will never be the same as now and ever. The love i had in high school was really pure and I wouldn't change any bit of it. A love story which has once be told and now I'm going to live the dream again.

We first met when I'm in form 1. At first there was nothing feeling involve. It all started in the end of form 2. Hahahahaha. It all started with all normal texting. I never in my concious mind I would got that person number and texting for about a month until Raya. We shared many stuff about each other. When i entered form 3, every morning I will wait for that person to come to school and we will like merepek and talk before go in to the class. It was something I will never forget. It was all beautiful. I thought it just a stupid crush but slowly it became love. Something i never felt before. 15 years old boy who never fall in love and suddenly the love came, he got all excited.

It never takes forever for this group of people to know what's going on between us. They make fun of it. Its like i don't deserve to be loved by people. It would say this group people make my life in high school really sucks. The one that i most upset and sad was to see the person that i admirer, kind, good hearted and the one who care about me just pretend things were never happened between us. It's because the group of people who WERE friends to that person don't approved it. How sad your life was? Now look what they have done to you.

We were classmates in science class until form 5. Your friends had done enough damage to me and none of it i would proud to write here. You never stood up for me, you never care what they have done to me. What we used to share meant nothing to you but i never hold any grudge. Deep down in my heart i do try to hate you but i just can't

You came to my high school musical singing competition and did scream and support me. I did heard it from the video my friend took. It was all memories which i really don't want to keep. The only thing that will remain the same now and forever is I will always love you. People always said that first love is a kind of love will you never forget for the rest of you life. I will never forget.

Now it has been 8 years we met and six of it i spend in love with you. Until now if you ask me whether the pain you caused is still there, I would say yes. The wound you and your friends did will never fade away. Thanks for being my first love and those sweet memories were really beautiful. If I need to choose to go back to the past, I would say no but loving you was never a mistake, it was a good lesson about life to me. have a good life to you. You know who you are......

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

The end of three years DRAMA

Well, i have graduated from my diploma in Mass Communication with the Anugerah Naib Canselor. Alhamdulillah. I never imagined that's coming since i started my programme. I still remember the first time i got there, the first person i met was Dhiya (used to call him aizat), then came raydwayne robin. Both of them really dear to me. On the second day of orientation week, i met Ashman Mahfudz. Never thought that I would met this fabulous people.

Faizah, Izah, Chacha and Nadia are those people that have been sticking around with me until the end of Diploma. Couldn't ask for a perfect combo of friends i have met since i stepped myself in Lendu. Then came along, Dayang Atul, Alisa Zubir, Zatil Husna, Amirul Asyraf and Naima Aznam. We used to share, laugh and cry together. Then they moved to Shah Alam pursuing their degree through fast track programmed which i didn't want. At first it was really devastating for Ashman and I but we came through that. Dhiya still and will always be the sengal and caring friend i ever have. We stick around together until the end of our life in Lendu. Love u guys so much.

Then starting of semester 3 we have changed class. I met few others friends and classmates which i adore so much. Eyda, Deela, Adrie, Aishah, Kak Nita, Faris, Sobree, Sha, Nina, Malin, Myra roxy, Kakak fika, Asyraf and Atthiya. They really cool and awesome.

Eyda, Chacha, Kakak fika, Baqek and Deela really help me a lot in many way i couldn't even think of any. The moment few person who really dear to me in my class left me for better opportunity to work in new environment, these girls there for me. Especially Eyda. Thank you so much sebab faham Raz dan sabar dengan Raz. I couldn't ask for better friend and sister like you.

Another big special Thanks to Atthiya and Asyraf. You know what i feel about both of you. I don't have to write here to let you know how important you guys to me. What i could write here is I Love YOU both so much. Thanks for being anywhere and anytime when i needed u the most especially Asyraf. You're the best person i ever met. THANK YOU SO MUCH.

Here comes the part where juniors are really good and nice to me. If I could list everyone, i would but it is going to take me ages because everyone is nice. Nabila Ainzam, Jazeli, Apish, Farahin, Nasha, Afiff, Pipi, Ben, Haiqal, Meam, Aimie, Adie, Aliff and like many other. I'm really sorry kalau tak tulis. You guys know it well. I love every each of you so much.

Seniors! Lagi la ramai Raz nak tulis. Bapet the only senior i could think of now. You're awesome. My mass comm senior, padin, ayai, acap, banyaknye. Senior kolej, awear, adeh, parker, japam, akad, amir, afai and lain lain. Thank you so much.

Last but not least, to all the one who used to cheer me up, give me hope and reasons for me to smile everyday, Thank you so much. The names who are not be written who are really close to me you know who you are and why i don't mentioned here. I love every person who have walked into my life. Good luck to you and thanks for giving me a little hope and chance to love you even just for a moment. When you know why you like someone, it's a crush. When you have no reason or explanation, it's love. I have few crushes but the love was just for two person for the past three years.

Thank you so much. All the best to everyone. Hope everyone will succeed in their choices in life. See you guys in the future maybe degree perhaps. Smile.